“Morning,” I replied, beginning to unpack my toothbrush and my bag of apples.
We didn’t talk. We didn’t fill the space with noise. He went back to his book, and I climbed into my bed, staring at a small crack in the ceiling that looked like a winding river. The fear was a physical entity now, settling under my ribs, rising to my throat whenever I thought of the mask and the count to ten.
Night fell early. Outside, the first snow began to fall—the kind you can’t see but can hear in the muffled, cotton-wrapped silence of the streets. I lay awake, my eyes wide in the darkness.
“Scared?” a low voice asked from the other bed.
Mark wasn’t asleep. His breathing was too deliberate.
“Yes,” I answered, my voice a mere splinter of sound.
“I was scared, too,” he said. “Three years ago, when I was first in a room like this.”
He didn’t explain the illness. I didn’t ask. In the hospital darkness, the content of the story mattered less than the admission. He hadn’t told me not to be afraid. He hadn’t offered the empty “everything will be okay” that people use to protect themselves from other people’s pain. He simply sat in the fear with me.
“Did it pass?” I asked.
“It passed,” he confirmed. “Eventually, you just realize that the only way through is through.”
I closed my eyes. The anxiety didn’t vanish, but it felt… halved. I found it staggering that a total stranger could make me feel less alone in five sentences than my husband had in eight years.
Cliffhanger: My phone buzzed on the nightstand at 3:00 AM. A text from Evan. I picked it up, expecting—praying for—a change of heart, a “good luck,” an “I love you.” Instead, the words on the screen made the room go completely cold.
Chapter 4: The Digital Execution
I reread the message four times, waiting for the letters to rearrange themselves into something human.
“We’re getting a divorce, Jessica. I don’t need the burden of a sick wife. I’m not paying for the surgery—you have your own insurance. My lawyer is already drafting the papers. Don’t call me.”
