He wouldn't even let me hug him anymore.
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At a stoplight, I looked at the little wooden bird hanging from my rearview mirror and started crying. Owen had made it for me last Mother's Day in shop class. The wings were uneven. The beak was crooked.
I had called it beautiful, and he had rolled his eyes and said, "Mom, you're legally required to say that!"
The school looked the same when I pulled in. That was unbearable.
Mrs. Dilmore was waiting near the front office, looking pale. With trembling hands, she held out a plain white envelope. "I found it in the back corner of my bottom desk drawer. I don't know how I missed it."
I took it carefully, as if paper could bruise. On the front, in Owen's handwriting, were two words: For Mom.
My knees almost gave out right there.
"I found it in the back corner of my bottom desk drawer."
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"Would you like to sit down?" Mrs. Dilmore asked.
"Please," I whispered.
She took me to an empty side room with a single table, two chairs, and a window looking out toward the field where Owen used to cut across the grass when he thought I could not see him.
Some part of me knew whatever was inside would change something, and I was suddenly afraid of yet another change I had not chosen.
I slid a finger under the flap. Inside was a folded sheet of notebook paper. The second I saw my son's handwriting, my heart ached so sharply I had to put one hand over it.
"Mom, I knew this letter would reach you if something happened to me. You need to know the truth. The truth about Dad and what has been going on these past few years..."
