“For what?”
She pressed her lips together. “For him to recognize me if he comes.”
I knelt behind her and rested my chin lightly on her shoulder so we were looking at the same reflection. “Your father would recognize you anywhere,” I said.
This time, my voice did not crack. Perhaps because it had become the only certainty I had left.
The drive to Oakridge Elementary took twelve minutes. It felt like forty. Emma sat in the back seat with both hands folded over the skirt of her dress, careful not to wrinkle it. Every time we stopped at a light, I glanced in the mirror to check her face. She was composed in the way children sometimes are when they have decided something matters too much to risk dissolving before it happens. The gym lights were visible from the parking lot, glowing through high rectangular windows. We could hear music even before I turned off the car.
“Do you want to go in?” I asked.
She nodded immediately, which somehow hurt more than hesitation would have.
The gym had been transformed as much as a school gym can be. Crepe paper streamers hung from basketball hoops. Balloon bouquets floated from weighted ribbons tied to folding tables draped in white plastic cloths. Someone had strung fairy lights around the bleachers, and on the far side of the room a DJ booth with a rented speaker system blinked in soft blue. The floors had been polished so recently that the smell of wax still mixed with the scent of powdered punch and popcorn. Little girls in satin and tulle darted through the room like bright fish. Men in suits, polos, uniforms, and one unfortunate bolo tie moved more carefully, looking either proud or mildly bewildered depending on temperament.
And there, near the refreshment tables, was Melissa Harding.
If I had believed in omens, I would have taken one look at her and turned around.
Melissa had been PTA president for two years, which in practice meant she behaved as if she were governor of all things involving bake sales, classroom volunteers, holiday drives, and any event with a sign-up genius sheet. She was one of those women who weaponized efficiency. Her emails arrived in bullet points. Her smile rarely moved above the mouth. She wore matching sets and carried clipboards like legal warrants. Before Daniel died, I had tolerated her the way most people tolerated her: politely, from a careful distance. After Daniel died, I had noticed the quality in her I had somehow missed before—the kind of charity that likes audiences, the kind of sympathy that sounds suspiciously like management.
